Erase and rewind

I really wish I could erase things and people from my past. I feel like my heart has become a bit hard lately. I need to forgive someone, but I can't, it hurts a lot. I don't want to feel these feelings anymore. I wish they would just pass. erase. It's been so long since someone I really cared about hurt me so deeply. Why do I keep torturing myself? Why can't I just forget about everything? I beg God to just take it all away. Please erase it soon, please.

I love yet I hate.